This isn’t what I signed up for. I’m tired. I’m anxious. I’m overwhelmed. Parenthood was supposed to be joyful. I was supposed to be happy. I was going to spend my days cuddling and reading books and my nights resting while my children slept. There was supposed to be peace. I never expected to have children with special needs. What I got was more tantrums than cuddles. More exhaustion than rest. I feel more overwhelmed than peaceful.
Don’t get me wrong. I love being a mom. I am sooooo glad I had my kids and I am truly blessed to be their mom. There are also moments when I feel like I’m drowning. I feel like I’m caught on some never-ending merry-go-round of evaluations and therapies. These are the moments when I want off this ride! I want help but I either don’t know how to ask or I won’t let myself. That would be admitting weakness. It would be putting a burden on someone else. This is the hard side of having kids with special needs.
Have you been there?
Are you there now?
Take heart, dear moms. I’m right there with you, in the trenches of this life of special needs parenting. To read more about 5 ways you can make your life easier, read my post on With the Huddleston’s on how you’re making your life harder as a special needs parent, and what you can do to make it better!